I think I’m officially depressed about the way our summer is going. I was really looking forward to spending time with the kids around the house, taking them to the pool and park, and just being with them after the long school year. I started out with a positive attitude, and really tried to connect with them.
But as it’s progressed, they are being really hard to be around. No matter what we do with them, it’s never good enough. Take our vacation, for instance: we went to the beach and they didn’t get to swim in the pool. We stayed at the pool, and they wanted to dig in the sand. We got them ice cream, but it didn’t have candy on top.
We went to a huge 4th of July event, with food, music and fireworks, but they wouldn’t be quiet about not having any glow sticks!
They have a house full of toys and they’re bored. They have a huge yard and playset, but it’s too hot. Yesterday I took them to Chick-Fil-A because I had a business meeting, and they could play while I talked. They complained because they didn’t get ice cream, they wanted more mints, they wouldn’t stop pulling on me for something else I just had to do for them, and my two year old ended up slapping me in the face.
Yesterday, I decided they were just really spoiled. We came home, went to bed, and I took every toy out of their room. If they wanted to color, they could use a pencil. I told them that if they wanted to complain about everything, I’d let them feel what it’s like not to have anything. The sad part is that even without any toys, they have more than most kids in the world will ever see. We talked about being thankful for what we do have rather than always complaining about what we don’t.
I was hoping they would earn back at least one toy today. But no.
Today we were going to go to the grocery store, but after complaining about lunch again, and completely ignoring everything I asked them to do, I took them straight home, and put them to bed.
I’m just really sad. I love my kids, and I want to enjoy being with them. I’ve tried every approach, and now, I just want to give up. I feel like a failure, and I don’t really like them. And the summer is almost over.
I really don’t want any advice, I just want to vent and express myself. And to ask for prayer.