You may have noticed my conspicuous absence at Real Life lately. (thank you for noticing, Jo-Lynne!) I’ve been meaning to write a post about why I haven’t been writing posts, but I haven’t found the time or energy!
There are several practical reasons, but it really all boils down to the Lord, of course. My local website is taking off like crazy, and I’ve been running 50 miles an hour trying to keep up! I feel that this local project will take me into a full time career in the next few years, when Little Pea goes to school.
I haven’t been doing a great job keeping up with my job at home, and my anxiety has sometimes gotten the better of me. So I began asking God what I should do.
I’ve always been the type of person that doesn’t do anything half-way. When I started blogging, I went full speed ahead, building the blog, trying to do a good job, in keeping with what the Lord was calling me to. Then there was the part of me that wants to be “in the club.” Blogging has such a comraderie, which I love. But in the back of my mind, is the thought that if I slow down, I’ll be forgotten. Since I haven’t had time to visit my precious bloggy friends, lately, I felt like I shouldn’t expect them to visit me, either.
As that thought was being uncovered, it revealed that my motives may not be purely to do what God calls me. (Shocking, I know!) I talked to God, when I felt like he was calling me to slow down on Real Life, and concentrate on other things. I said, “Lord, I’ve worked so hard to have a platform for you, and if I leave it, I’ll lose my “following.” That’s when the Lord replied loud and clear!
He said, “You don’t have a following… I do!” It knocked my ego down a few hundred notches, and reminded me that anything good that I do, is only because of Him. He reminded me of Lisa, who was searching a recipe when she came across Real Life, and was inspired to start her blog, Stop and Smell the Chocolates. She is really amazing! I thought about Melanie Dobson, who searched for tanning lotion reviews, and gave me the incredible opportunity to read her life-changing book, The Black Cloister. Anyway, my point is that I did not bring these beautiful women to my blog, God did. He has always brought exactly the person who needed to read my posts, and He will continue to do so, whether I post once a day or once a month.
So all that to say that I’m having to step back a little. But please don’t forget me! I have a few review obligations, and a lot to say! But I’m going to stop doing this in my own strength, and wait for God to direct me- take care of my family and myself. I’ll still be around, even if not as often!
PS, Carey, I know you’re saying, “It’s about time.” Somehow I know you’ve been praying.