I have a million things I “have” to do tonight. But I really “need” to write this post. I think I’m at the top of my threshold for stress, and all I want to do is crawl into a hole and hide for about two weeks.
That statement usually brings out a variety of reactions in people, many of which increase my stress, so I don’t usually like to admit it. But here I am. Tonight I had a horrible rehearsal for the Nutcracker (almost fainted and broke down crying), I’ve had a couple of big failures where I work (for someone else, that is), I have 126 unread emails (no, make that 127- one just came in), all needing me to do something, and three girls who deserve more than being kept busy while mommy works. I have to get costumes made within the week, and I have to create a presentation to teach to my social media Workshop next Tuesday.
I really want to give up on everything. I realize that I’ve reached the end of myself, and that’s actually a good place to be, even though it feels hopeless right now. Part of me thinks, “There are people battling much more horrible trials right now, you should be thankful it’s not you.” Yeah, but this trial is real to me right now. I can’t push it to the back burner because someone else is facing something harder.
So here I am. I have nothing to offer, but my faith in God. I need Him to give me the strength, the focus, the discipline to accomplish what’s before me… and to decide if something needs to go. I need him to help me nurture my children, as a busy working mom. I can’t do it. I just can’t.
I know that you wonderful people are going to want to give me advice right now, but I honestly can’t handle another “should.” What I need right now is the Word of God, the living truth.
So do you have any encouraging Scriptures that come to your mind? I know that this momentary stress will pass, but someone else may be having these same feelings, not knowing what the future holds. I’d love it if you’d leave some Truth in the comments below!