Have you ever felt a deep chasm open in your heart? Where hurts have laid hidden for decades? The darkness is tangible and the sting is real. The pain takes your breath away. All the lies the enemy has placed there come streaming out like an overwhelming flood. Who has opened it? Was it you? A friend? The enemy of your soul? Or was it your Lord and Redeemer, your Healer, and the Lover of your soul?
If the chasm stays closed, the healing will never come. Open it, Lord, let it come. Finally may I allow You to reach into the darkest place, and shine your light. Then, close it tight, so the hurts can never be stuffed down deep inside.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matt 28:30
O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
This post is a little more self-exposing than I’m used to, but if I’m going to be real, I have to share the difficult times, too. Someone mentioned last week to me that “difficult” is not at all “bad,” because in the difficult situations, God can prove His glory. I debated pressing the “publish” button, but I feel that someone else may need to read this today, and know that they are not alone.